I felt His presence that night! It was a feeling like no other I have ever experienced, and I cannot truly even express it into words. I accepted the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the Cross over 2000 years ago for the salvation of my soul and named Him as my Lord and Savior. I became His in that instant. It was a true transformation of my body, mind, and soul. I was born again through the blood of Jesus
Everything was different after that day…but, yet still the same.
I began to notice the things around me in a different way. I could feel my heart shifting, but it wasn’t all instantaneous. I had work to do to keep this feeling going and grow my heart for God. I had to learn to trust Him, even when I could not hear or feel Him. I had to learn to speak to Him and make changes in my behaviors to honor Him. “I trust you Lord” became my mantra and I spoke it over myself and my situations multiple times a day. But He never left my side. He began to plant seeds of ideas into my heart to bear fruit for Him. That same week of my salvation, I had the opportunity to bring someone else into our Bible Study group who was in need of hope as well. To this day, she still attends our regular Tuesday night gatherings.
I started to gain a desire to learn as much as I possibly could about God, Jesus, the Bible, and everything in between. I wanted to soak up every ounce of knowledge that I could.
I had jumped into the deep end and I was determined to swim, to survive, to THRIVE.
Not long after, I began to feel the urge to return to my business and provide doula support. I knew I needed to get my business going again and my motivation to do so returned with a vengeance. My depression and despair over the pandemic eased and I saw hope and light.
I learned that I didn’t need to be perfect, that “all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Romans 3:23 NIV). God doesn’t expect us to be perfect, we were born into sin and as such, we are imperfect beings. We are not the judges of other’s sins either; trying to do so would in and of itself be sinful. I learned that as a follower of Christ, a born again saved soul, and daughter of the King, my purpose is to tell other people His good news. I have been called to be His messenger. While I do my best to not sin, I will never claim to be perfect. Repentance has become a part of my daily life.
In October, I made the decision to be publicly baptized and profess my faith for all to see. The church I had been attending since late summer was hosting a Night of Hope out on their lawn and the pastor would be baptizing anyone who wanted it. I invited my friends and family to be witness to my profession of faith. On October 18, 2020, I was baptized by my own desire!