I felt like such an unfit mother for having these thoughts that felt very intense. Then I had a conversation with a dear friend and her response: “no judgement here, tell me what’s on your mind.”
There were several locally owned and operated companies that are making really innovative products.
It’s been hours and you just can’t go on anymore…You tell your doula that you’re ready to use your code word; you look into her eyes and she feels it too. She gives you a reassuring nod and you tell the nurse “I’d like to get an epidural”.